What’s Wrong if Feel in Love..

Huurrrmmm my hamming was after I read one question from someone blog… He wrote that he feel love with other then his wife… and he as asked, Are that was wrong if he feel it toward other women? Then I put my self in the situation… for the first answer of course I my love to The Mighty Allah, then… I fall my love to both my parent, sibling and all the family members… not forget my men Mr. Big Guy… I love him because he love me… then I feel the still have love space in my heart… to who..??? then slowly I got the answer… it towart “HIM” whose…??? Its only me can reach the answer…but wat was still in my mind do HIM fell the same feeling toward me? Or just put me to fill in the blank when HIM alone??? To be positive I give answer to my own heart… maybe “HE” love me but he should make a decision to make a right choice… but wat’s wrng if he feel it and I feel the same way…? True.. people said that we cant false someone to fall in love with us.. it because love come from truly deeply pure heart… then I made a conclusions to all my question… let allteh true love stay just in my heart and as the inspiration for me to love who love me much and without any reason..

XOXO…
Me SunFlowers

Miss The Part of The List

Hrrrmmmm…. Too tired to hold on the ringing tone… then I off the pending call, actually I wanna talk to Mr Big Guy for some chat… but may be he fall sleep already or… too busy with all the paper work for work tomorrow… its always like that… should I think negative to those all reason ? wat for? Or do I miss him for a day… since 3 month ago everyday we must have some chat… why..? don’t know… some time he talk about our married planning… wooopsss… do I ready to discuss it… hahahaha… like flying in the air when this issue was the topics… !@#$!@%.... Headect.. huhuhu… then I pull on my headphone and -listen to all my Ne-yo song collection… I’m stuck at one song “ Part of the List”… suddenly make me feel miss some one so much… who…? “ … Mr. Spekie’s ” since last 2 day this feeling simply come in my head and dance over… the lyrics was…


“Style of your hair Shape of you eyes and your nose The way you stare, as if you see right through to my soul To your left hand and the way that its not quite as big as your right. The way u stand in the mirror before we go out at night. Our quiet time Your beautiful mind There all Part Of The List Things that i miss Things like your funny little laugh, or the way you smile, or the way we kiss What i notice is this I come up with Something new every single time, that i sit and reminisce The way your sweet smell, lingers when you leave a room. Stories you tell, as we lay in bed, all afternoon I dreamed you now every night, in my mind is where we meet And when im awake, staring at pictures of you asleep Touching your face Invading your space. There all part of the list Things that i miss Things like your funny little laugh, or the way you smile, or the way we kiss What i notice is this I come up with something new every single time, that i sit and reminisce.
And you live in my memories forever more, i swear "


This song realy knock my heart to miss him… I cant smell him anymore.. and touch him even more… and all the lyric was related to our relationship...but even it just short little time that I spend with him and it was the total gold quality time… should I remember all this past? I hate this felling… I close my both eyes… I breath… I should let it be… it just a miss… wwaaaa…. This nite too cold course of the rain wind outside even I already switch of the fan… I grab my teddy by my side… I hold it in my arm and hug it tied… hehehe… I’m sleepy already… I should have some rest and some sleep… miss on him… both.. hahahaha… see all later in my next page…


XOXO…
Me SunFlowers

Short Story My Life

I’m born as name of a girl and women but in the same time and not to same people… this year my age reach 26 and by this next year I’ll be 27 old… old… do I? Well what’s wrong with age.. Just a number to show how long u been born… and how long we go true with our own life… I’m a eldest sister among another 7 of my sibling… my beloved daddy was someone who expert on machine and my beloved mummy was someone who expert on art… and drawing… and also a good Chef in our lovely home… my interest easy to change to anything but the most thing was I love to do a reading before fall on my bad.. and listen to many type of music… As P.A Project Manager in my office I have to hold tied my daily Dairy even actually in the diary was not my scheduled. i’m just a simple person who love shoes and High hill for meet shoes mean everything and I’ll make sure every month I must spend certain amount to buy at least one pair specially in Vinnci, Voir, Or Summit Shoes Castle hehehe… and it make my mummy always shouting to my ears to stop buying course no space to place my shoes hahaha… My love to take just a cereal for my breakfast and Nasi Campur for my lunch specially ikan keli with sambal belacan + tomato +lime it make hot and sour taste… but no food for my dinner and it make me only take jasmine green tea course I love the smell and it make me fresh…
Special person in my love… actually I just meet some one who don’t know how to explain… but he too gentlemen and understanding and I call him Mr Big Guy. Should I said I’m in love with him… eerrmmm well I’m not sure with this feeling was but I cant stand alone without my Mr Big Guy…Actually since last year I was fall with someone “Mr Spekie’s” but fate bring him far from me… and I realize that just a scandal in love relationship and he not belong to me… he was with someone before meet me so he should follow his fate and his heart to move to.. am i right…? and I let him with peace and forgiveness. who and where it happen it just me will keep it forever… Then I choose to make up with Mr Big Guy… love and life is miracle and mystery… and complicated… but I like this situation even sometime it make me cry bit and some time make me fly away…
In this south state.. I mean my hometown I learn to bear with everything here... specially more close with my parent and all my family member… Of course family was everything… and it always in my heart… Till im done..(die of Course) I’m done for this time and will continue latter… all was about me… just knock.. knock.. to Helo to be my friend all most welcome…

XOXO…

Me SunFlowers